What I wrote when I had writers block.

Here it is, the middle of August and I wake up to read that it's the first day of school, for many of my hip-high loved ones.


What??!!


How can this be??!!


I haven't even done all the fun summer things yet.  You know all those radically fun things you do in the summer, because you finally have those extra hours of daylight, that you had been dreaming about since last September?  


I haven't gone in our lake once.  Every time it's been nice enough to go, it seems we have other obligations to attend too, which don't include a trip to the drink.  I think my dogs are wondering, when is summer gonna be here?  And the only days that I've gone to it was, the first 70* day I took the dogs there to get wet and thought it might be warm enough to jump in.  I was wrong, I wasn't warm enough to go past my ankles.  And the other time was the 4th of July, and it's kind of common sense not to go into that water for at least a day or two after, because of all the fireworks that are in it.  By this time last year, I had been in the lake at least two dozen times.  Maybe we'll have a hot fall and I still have a chance.


I never made it to Arizona.  My get to Arizona by Labor Day balloon, has officially run out of air.  This makes me sad on so many levels.

• I really wanted to take my girls on a road trip.
• I really wanted to meet my 3 sisters, my brother, my 2 nephews and my niece.  I've been in contact with them and my Step-mom through FB for over a year now, and I really wanted to get down there to meet them, but unfortunately, life happens sometimes and we don't always get what we want.  Hmmm. Somebody should write a song like that.
• The weather in Washington SUCKED this summer and I would've loved to be somewhere where I could bake in the 115* sun and lounge around a pool.
• I would have loved to show my bio-dad exactly what he missed out on, by never acknowledging the fact that I existed.  I know, it's a little vein and bitch-like, but I don't care.  For years I had to wonder, why wasn't I good enough?  Then I had to accept that I would never be apart of his life, which was fine, I had my Grandpa, and let me tell ya, he was a great dad to me.  But, there's still this part of me that wants to show him just how AWEsome I turned out without him, and that here I stand wanting nothing more than acceptance and friendship from him.  And maybe a fucking apology!!! Sorry for the language Grams.

Moving on.............

I didn't get my basement finished.  Although, I have made a lot of progress down there.  Cleaning a dungeon is not what I want to do on a cold, rainy day, even if it is July.  And then when the sun does come out and you can open the door and windows, it doesn't take long for that glowing orb to draw you out to do something productive outside, like mow the five million dandelions in the back yard.  But I did get almost half of the basement sorted.

I've only been camping twice!!!  This is not right, I had at least four trips planned.  Again, the weather here, SUCKED!!  

But as luck would have it, today's weather doesn't suck, so I'm gonna go out and enjoy the hell out of it, before my kid has to go back to school in a couple of weeks.


See y'all tomorra!
Marisa